It’s been a time of reflection of late, where, what and whatever sort of questions have been rattling around in my brain. Some questions are easily answered, perhaps due to their simplicity, others, which require more indepth answers, have yet to be put out there in the universe for me to discover.
One day, I will stumble upon the meaning of life for me going forth.
As you can imagine, life is becoming increasingly complex, and Les is becoming more unwell. There is no idea how long he has to go; it could be weeks or a few months. I’ve decided to take a short break from blogging because my heart isn’t in it anymore; it’s become a duty, which isn’t what I want blogging to be. Another more relevant reason is that my world has become very small, and I’m having to rely on past experiences. Though vital as they are, it’s becoming a tad depressing to think about what we had planned and the realisation that it’s not going to happen. I fully intend to keep having adventures, unfortunately, not with Les, though he’s made me promise to keep getting out there. A girl has to keep her promises.
I love my small space in the blogging world and my interaction with you all.
Great fodder for the mind. With that comment, I will be back as I need to keep feeding that mind of mine. Plus, popping in to read what’s going on in your world will still be happening when I have time to myself.
There is one promise I will keep: to let you know when we have to say goodbye to Les. If that happens before I return from my blogging break.
Leaving you with this poem I read recently by Owen Marshall
Love is the key to life’s inner room
Faith despite the risks; insistence
than mere existence
Love is dispossession; the release
of our best emotion to another home.
Completely understandable, Suz. Life sends us curveballs and we have to deal with them whichever way works for us. Thinking of you and sending hugs. Melx
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Thanks very much, Mel for your thoughtful comment. That blardy curveball just keeps on giving 😉 I will still keep reading about all your adventures and I hope that you both enjoy each one xx
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Sending hugs. x
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Thanks Jim, I understand. I look forward to keeping up to date with all your wonderful adventures out walking. Keep it up 🙂 xx
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Very understandable – you will know that we will all be missing you and thinking of you and Les as you go through this difficult time. With love x
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Thanks very much, Anabel for being so thoughtful and I will still be lurking around and acknowledging your posts so you know that all is ok. As mentioned to others, I have been sharing too much sadness so it was time to have a break for a little while. With love from us both x
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Reading this has made me sad. I don’t know what to say in response.
Take care.
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If I was in your shoes I would find it difficult to write a response. I understand, Neil. This is one of the reasons for taking a break, as it’s hard to be real and not share what’s going on because that is our reality. All good and we’re still a very lucky couple who have packed a hell of a lot of adventure into our lives than most people. Take care too.
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Enjoy the break, we’re not going anywhere.
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Thanks very much, Sheree.
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I have wondered how long you could keep going, Suzanne. Your situation must be so emotionally draining. Les seems to have been ill for the longest time. We have all wished for a happy ending, but you’ve acknowledged that it can’t be with Les and right now you’re in no man’s land. Take all the time you need to see this through. I always light up when I see that you’ve posted, but darlin, there’s a time and a place. Look after yourself, and if I can help in any way, just shout. Hugs, darlin xx
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Your kindness and thoughtful comments have been appreciated, Jo. It is draining and a very long journey for the both of us. Made harder dealing with family who aren’t so thoughtful. Enough on that. I’ll acknowledge that I’ve read your post so you know all is okay 🙂 Take care too xxoo
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Take all the time you need. Your blogs should never be a chore but should enrich your life
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My heart is sad reading this Suzanne. Take good care of yourself and just be there for Les as you have been. The blogging world will always be here and friends too when you’re ready to share again. In the meantime sending you lots of love and hugs of friendship across the waves. Take care. xx
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Thanks very much, Miriam your kindness is appreciated. One of the reasons for taking a break is that I’m sharing too much sadness. Unfortunately, that’s our reality at the moment though we still have more happy moments where laughter is enjoyed than sadness xx
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I’m glad to hear that Suzanne. Keep laughing and enjoying those moments as they come. That’s really all we can do isn’t it! xx
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Understandable. We will be here when you get back. Blessing. xo
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Thanks very much, Suzanne for your blessing xx
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Take all the time you need, Suzanne. We’ll be here whenever you feel like posting again. I’ll be thinking of you and Les. Sending you love and hugs.
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Thanks, Natalie, that’s very kind of you x
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This is such sad news, Suzanne, and I hope you’re okay under the circumstances. It’s more important for you to be there for Les, as you have been. The blogosphere will be waiting for you when you feel like it’s time to return. Take care and sending hugs. X
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Thanks very much, Nilla for your thoughtful comment xx
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If there’s anyone deserving a break, it’s you, Suzanne. The blog is there when you feel inspired again. Enjoy the time you have left with Les. Hugs.
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Thanks very much, Eilene, for your kind words from us both xx
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Every time I see a post from you my heart says ‘Is this the one?’ in the hope that it isn’t. I hope that you have as much time together as you need.
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Thanks very much, April. I’m not sure how long we have, so we are trying to make the most of each day. We still chat about the time we met up with you at the pub and the area we were housesitting in.
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It was a good day.
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May the coming period be as smooth as it can be. We can wait
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Thanks very much, Derrick, and I will return to blogging when I’ve got a clearer head.
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Thanks very much, Cathy💐
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Of course you need to take a break. Blogging should never feel like a chore and certainly at the moment you should be focusing on what’s best for you and Les. We will still be here when you feel the time is right to return, and meanwhile I’ll be thinking of you both. Sending hugs xx
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Thanks very much, Sarah, for your thoughtful comment. I will return when the time is right. I’ll still check in to read your posts. Take care xx
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You will understand that I am finding life hard at the moment, and I’m afraid to say reading this has made me cry, again, but I will say enjoy every minute you have left together and for goodness sake make sure you have all the passwords and PINs you will need. My heart goes out to you Suzanne, look after yourself and when you need a shoulder to cry on, I’m here (with my rather soggy shoulder it has to be said). Jude xx
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Yes, Jude, I do know that you’re finding life hard at the moment which is totally understandable. The big reason to having a break is not to make people I interact with here feel sad and cry. I know it’s natural to do so though I’ve always wanted this blog to be uplifting and fun. Life isn’t that at the moment and it’s been made harder having to deal with family who are being utterly selfish. Enough on that subject. I will keep in contact even if it’s acknowledging your post with a “like”. I will definitely keep blogging when life is less complicated as I’ve enjoyed it over the last 9 years. Big hugs and thanks again for being so caring and thoughtful. Take care of yourself, Jude xx
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PS I must admit when I read about the passwords and pins I laughed 🙂 All sorted though I’m sure to have a meltdown doing something basic with our accounts. Part of the process I suppose.
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A very precious time for you to spend with Les. I send you hugs. Now is the time for you both to continue sharing all your past memories. All your blogging buddies will still be here when you return.
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Thanks very much, Pauline. Yes, precious time is appreciated by both of us. I will be back and also appreciate my blogging buddies for their support xx
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Having been in your position, my heart goes out to you. It is a terrible time of fearfulness and sadness.
I wasn’t blogging when I lost Graham, but I understand this need to take a break.
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Thanks very much, Sue, for your kind thoughts. A saying I read a while ago that resonated with me – “Grief is another form of fear” I suppose the secret is not to let the fear rule our lives as we have the privilege of still living.
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This post was not a surprise. You need to take this time for both you and Les. Know that you both are being held tightly in our arms and warmly in our thoughts.
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Thanks very much, Janis, for your kind words. You’re right hardly a surprise though something I need to do. I will still check in now and again to see how you’re all doing.
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Absolutely take a break, Suzanne, and for as long as you need/want to. This community will be here for you when you are ready. ❤
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Thanks, Diane and I will return 🙂
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